what i am doing and how i am being, here and now

Monday, September 25, 2006

the week that was...

(sorry do not know why the photos aren't working!! :(

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On the weekend, with the help of Karl and Denise, I bought most of the stuff I needed for my apartment – crockery, cutlery, towels, sheets, pots and pans and, of course, a kit to make caipirinhas. (Don’t worry mum, I will buy an iron, I promise!) However the sheets I bought were not big enough for my bed. So I went back to the store to exchange them. I went up to an employee at the front of the store and said, “Boa noite. Por favor você me ajudar? Ontem eu comprei estes lencões, mas eu quero trocar. Como eu posso trocar deles?” (Good evening. Can you please help me? Yesterday I bought these sheets, but I want to change them. How can I change them?”) He asked me nervously, “Você fala Inglês?” (Do you speak English?) I told him yes, but why do you ask? He asked me to wait there, and he proceeded to go and find some random shoppers in the fruit and veg section and asked them if they spoke English. They said yes so he brought them over to me. He motioned to me to speak to them. So I repeated in Portuguese what I had said to him. They looked very confused, wondering why he could not understand what I wanted to do. They told him, she wants to change the sheets. He said, “Sim, mas ela fala Inglês” (Yes, but she speaks English). So I repeated my simple request in English which, judging by people’s faces, just increased the confusion. So I politely said “Obrigada” (thank you) and went to find someone else to help me. I found the little old man who had helped me to pack all my things and asked him the same thing in Portuguese. He told me where I should go and off I went and changed the sheets!!!


In this occasion I was saying the right thing but was not understood. However other times I say the wrong thing, but I unfortunately I AM understood! One night this week I was coming back home after enjoying quite a few caipirinhas at a bar with a cool lounge jazz band (above). The taxi driver was a fairly young guy and we were chatting away. He told me he is from the north-east of Brazil which has beautiful beaches and the people are very relaxed and happy. Then somehow we got onto the subject of the upcoming national election. I meant to ask, “No Brasil, votar é obrigatório?” (In Brazil is it compulsory to vote?), however the caipirinhas must have taken over my tongue because I asked “No Brasil, foder é obrigatório?” (In Brazil, is it compulsory to f**k?). After much laughing, during which time I realized what I had said, he answered, smiling “Sempre, sempre é obrigatório” (It is always, always compulsory).

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I went to the Mercado Municipal – Town Market – which is an impressive old building housing numerous food stalls with fruit from all over Brazil and also Italian delicacies, like cheese, oils and meats. I went with Camila, a colleague from work, and her sister and mum. It was fun exploring the different stalls and doing taste tests and I even tasted fruits, a couple of which I actually liked!!! I know that shock and horror is spreading over the faces of several people as they read this, but it is true! I cannot remember the names of any of the fruits that I liked except for açai – which is a fruit from the Amazon which tastes like chocolate – what is not to like?!? ;)

Went to my first Latin-style Brazilian bar – which had live salsa band playing and everyone dancing – had a few dances with Vlad, Colombian trainee and AIESEC alumnus. Was really nice to hang out with trainees who were all speaking Portuguese with each other and Brasilians around them.

I am allergic to exercise!! Since the gym at my building is not yet opened I went for a walk on Tuesday morning at a nearby “square” since I was told it is not very safe to go walking in the Trianon-MASP Park by myself. After about 20 minutes I was getting a bit dizzy cos the square is not that big and I was walking round and round like a rat on a wheel…but my legs started to get really red and itchy…so uncomfortable that I had to stop and go back to the house. At the coffee machine later that day I was joking to my colleague that “Eu tehno alergia para exercício” and she said her sister had the same thing. Her doctor told her that if you have not done exercise for a while that when you do, your body releases some toxins through your skin, which is what makes you itchy. The cure? Doing more regular exercise!!!

Manicure with a twist – went to the salon at the bank for a manicure but got a free weight consultation as well. I should have known something strange was going to happen from the start when she took my hand and placed it on her stomach while she was removing my old nail polish…I was not sure why that was happening…but then she started to tell me that I was fat and to make matters worse, perhaps just in case I could not understand “Eu acho que você está gorda” (I think you are fat) or maybe for extra emphasis and public embarrassment she proceeded to grab my stomach in several places to make her point. Then she offered her help and assistance – that she does massages that will make me thin and beautiful – for just R$40 at my house. She also emphasized this point by making the hour glass shape of a woman’s body with her hands, also holding the nail file. Then she asked me what kind of exercise I do. I said that the gym right now is not opened but I went for a 30 minutes walk. Not enough she told me. Again grabbing my stomach she told me that I need to do at least 1 hour exercise per day. She now begins to remove the cuticles on my nails. Then she starts to ask me how I am enjoying my time in Brazil. Finally, I thought, we are moving away from the weight issue. But no. After I told her that I was enjoying my time so far, she said she agrees that Brazil is a great country. Great weather. Great food. Great men. BUT, she said, “Homems do Brasil não gostam mulheres gordas” (Brazilian men do not like fat women). But I should not worry, there is hope for me yet apparently, because she can give me this amazing massage for just R$40 and I will be thin. The rest of the manicure managed to proceed without any further stomach grabbing, just a small investigation about what I eat in Brazil. And of course a reminder to call her to book a massage ;) I somehow wasn't angry though...but more than slightly amused by the "encounter".

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I met up with Pablo Handl again for a couple of drinks. It is more than 3 years since we last saw each other after working together on AIESEC International for a year (last time I remember he was recovering from chicken pox!). Pablo is doing some really interesting work here with social-entrepreneurship and starting to establish “The Hub” here as a space for social-entrepreneurs. It was really nice to meet up and reconnect with someone after a long break, and also discover that there is a vibrant scene here in São Paulo interested in topics like social-entrepreneurship, sustainability, chaordic processes and spirituality. Hoping to connect to this group more during my stay here.

Discovered an Australasian bar here called Kiaora – which has a Kiwi name but is filled with Australian aboriginal-style painting inside, as well as the Australian and NZ flags and rugby jerseys. Not sure how it happened but managed to stay out until 5am on Thursday night with Guga and some of his friends from his work training course which brought him to Sampa from Rio.


In Amsterdam it was very rare that I would eat dinner alone - normally I would have dinner with Maria, Brenda or other friends, often cooking at my house or theirs, or going out for a meal. Sharing a meal is an age-old and universal way of connecting with people. But since I moved to Sampa I have had too many meals alone at my new place. So in order to reconnect with this practice and also to thank them for all the help they have given me since I moved here, I invited Marcio, Karl and Denise over for dinner on Friday night. I tried to make locro again (Bolivian vegetable stew) which was quite famous from my Amsterdam kitchen, but it did not seem to work out as well this time. Anyways, luckily I bought a yummy ice cream and my guests brought wine and shisha so it ended up being a nice evening. Unfortunately we did not manage to drill the holes for my paintings because there is a law that you cannot drill after 10pm (guests did not arrive till 10:30pm), but hopefully will get around to that this week before my next dinner guests come on Thursday. Hopefully it will not take long for the dinner invites to be more spontaneous and the atmosphere less formal.

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The week ended on a great win. On Saturday I went with Marcio, Laura and Onno to watch the Australian Opals win the World Basketball Championships at Ibirapuera Stadium. After a slow start, the Opals dominated the Russians for the rest of the match and won by nearly 20 points. There was a bit of support for the Russians from the Brazilian crowd because the Aussies knocked Brazil out of the competition but thanks to the Brazilian love of women Lauren Jackson managed to swing the crowd back to the Aussie side J Was great to be back at a basketball match after many many years and always great to see your country win a world championships! Unfortunately could not find any Aussies to party with afterwards but it was great to be there for the win.

Monday, September 18, 2006

proud to be gluten-free?




most of the time i deal with my gluten intolerance in a matter of fact and calm way - if i eat something with gluten in it, i feel sick later on, so i don't eat things that i know have gluten in them...logíco

but i must admit that every few months or so i do get incredibly frustrated and depressed with the lack of choice i have in foods (especially combined with my preference to eat vegetarian) and also the inconvenience that i bring to different social situations - which can be especially tough when you are the new girl in town and want to make friends, but no, sorry, i cannot drink that beer, no sorry, i cannot eat that pizza, i cannot eat that bread, i cannot eat that pasta bla bla bla - but yes i am a fun easy going person to be around, trust me!

i was looking on the net and i found this website with gluten-friendly merchandise and it made me smile and realise that what i want is not "proud to be gluten-free" but normal...but then again...what is normal except a setting on a washing machine??

Friday, September 15, 2006

72% of the world to go


found this neat tool on melissa's blog to map the countries you have been to....so far 41 countries...hoping to add more from south america in next couple of years :)

my life path number 11

I saw this on Jingwei's blog...do you think it is just a coincidence that my life in Amsterdam fit into 11 boxes...??? :P
Your purpose in life is to inspire others
Your amazing energy draws people to you, and you give them great insight in return.You hold a great amount of power over others, without even trying.You have the makings of an inventor, artist, religious leader, or prophet.
In love, you are sensitive and passionate. You connect with your partner on a very deep level.
You have great abilities, but you are often way too critical of yourself.You don't fit in - and instead of celebrating your differences, you dwell on them.You have high expectations of yourself. But sometimes you set them too high and don't achieve anything.

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

parabéns cristina e domingo


yesterday my manager and her husband celebrated 25 years of marriage with their family and friends - they had a ceremony to renew their vows at the same church with the same priest and then a dinner and party

it was a great celebration of their lives together, along with their three children

it was so special to be invited to this private celebration and i enjoyed the night with some of my colleagues from D+I and also the bank - caipirinhas and samba!

here is me with "the bride", cristina and priscila,ellen and i at the party - aiesec alumni will note the red chinese dress is still going strong ;)

i love ubatuba


when you are invited to the beach for a weekend at a place called UBATUBA - how can you refuse??

before i got on the four-hour bus trip at 7am on saturday morning i did think it would be nice to get out of the city for a couple of days and see another place in brasil...but i didn't imagine how amazing it would really be! to be once again at a fairly quite, beautiful beach, with sun and sand and friendly happy people...it was so relaxing and re-energising!!! and being there it reminded me so much of redcliffe's shores and especially my family - must admit to a bout of homesickness and reflection :)

i also had great brazilian hosts - friendly and hospitable (and musically talented - playing guitar and drums on the beach)

the weekend taught me that i need to plan to get out of the city and connect with nature regularly and rekindled my interest in exploring brazilian music also - next week i will start some percussion classes with christel :)

here is a glimpse of the beach from the path that went from the house to the shores of praia fortaleza...if you want to see more you can check them out here

São Paulo so far...





yesterday was my one month anniversary of being in sao paulo...around one month ago i made a very bold and naive statement that "i am sao paulo", having left gezillig amsterdam after 1.5 years were i felt like i could say "i was amsterdam" after the famous council campaign...

i think indeed i will need at least 1.5 years before i can say the same thing about sao paulo...this city is maaaaassive....360 degree views of high rise buildings and never ending traffic...but it is full of life and warm and friendly people....

here you can see some of the sites that have happily become most familiar to me in my first month - the high rises of sao paulo, but from ibirapuera park; the view from the balcony of my temporary flat; my friend marcio, who has helped me, amongst many things, to buy a phone, find an apartment and discover the thick shakes at Bob's Burgers (meal in a drink); and my friends karl (aussie) and denise (brasiliera) who have been helping me to settle in, find cool restaurants and meet friends here (not to mention the dvd's of cricket, AFL and league!) - obviously this photo is from their wedding a couple of years ago, they don't get around in these kind of clothes normally ;)

i'm looking forward to continuing these sites but also expanding my horizons

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

Morreu Steve Irwin, conhecido como "caçador de crocodilos"

as i got to the office on monday i got a "torpedo" (SMS/text message) from aussie friend, Karl, who is living in Brasil, telling me about the death of Steve Irwin...

i expected he was finally eaten by a crocodile that got sick of him teasing the bastards, but then i read the online news and realised the story was different

but i didn't have to check the australian news, most of my brasilian colleagues already knew about the story and were asking if i was ok...here is one of the many online news articles here about him - the headline reads: "Death of Steve Irwin: known as the "crocodile hunter"

at first i was so shocked that they even knew his name - but then i recalled having previously seen steve irwin dubbed into spanish in guatemala and in estonian also...in the netherlands he was also flogging mobile phones....and seems he is well known here from the animal planet

it was interesting to me that someone who embarrassed me in a cultural cringe kind of way on a regular basis can be so well loved overseas...as a friend said, "he was an idiot, but a good idiot" - he did a lot for interest in and protection of the environment and wildlife

this article from "The Australian" gives some insights into why he was so well loved abroad

as always, thoughts go out to his wife and two small children who will have to face life without him after the national hype and sorrow has passed

Sunday, September 03, 2006

what's your practice?

i have known for a while now that i need to find my own daily practice, but recently reading "The Dance" by Oriah Mountain Dreamer, really touched me and reminded me of this need (see passage below) - but neither the catholic prayers i learnt as a child or unstructured silence work for me these days - so i'm curious to know about other people's practices and how you developed/discovered them...???

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"To dance - to be who we really are and live true to our soul's desires - we must return again and again to this sacred emptiness because deep within we know, as TS Eliot wrote, that:

Except for the point, the still point
There wold be no dance
and there is only the dance.

We must find a way - a practice - that can take us to the emptiness and keep us there when we would run from what we fear it holds. Without this our lives become, not the graceful movement that dances awake who we are, but the stumbling sleepwalk or frantic running of those who are afriad because they have forgoten who and what they really are.

A practice is a structured activity that ofers us a ay to consciously enter and be with the sacred emptiness at the center of our being. It is by definition done on a regular, preferably daily, basis. The regularity is what makes it a pracitce. you do it whether you feel like it or not, and not feeling like it - resistance - seems to be a pretty universal human response to doing anything on a regular basis, at least in Western culture. The structure is what makes the regularity possible. It gives us a way - a method or an activity - with a shape that does not depend upon how we are feeling at that moment...

At the heart of any effective practice, whether it is explicity spiritual, inherently creative, or rigorously physical, is a structure that clears and holds open a space and time for slowing down and letting go. Letting go necessitates being with the fear that comes when we become aware that all that we love in the world - our very life itself - is impermanent...

When we avoid the emptiness, when we fill the stillness with too much doing, we are often trying to outrun our sometimes unconscious conviction that who we are will never be enough...If we can simply be with the fear that we are not enough, and with the vastness of what we do not konw, we discover an emptiness that is not our failure bit is the very source of the fullness of who and what we are. We discover that who we really are - compassionate, gentle beings capable of being with every moment - has always been enough."
"The Dance", by Oriah Mountain Dreamer

happy father's day, dad

they say that a girl's first love is her dad...and since today (3 september) is father's day in australia, thought i'd share what i love about my dad...peter john fitzgerald









dear dad

i love...
your willingness to adapt to new technologies - skype, email, scanners, and
your healthy obsession with using them
your your powder blue safari suit that keeps you living in the 70s
your compassion and contributions to those less fortunate

i love....
your loyalty to the "mighty pies" even when they're not so mighty
your financial management and advising skills
your recollection of the names of customer service phone people
your demonstration of the saying "if a job's worth doing it's worth doing well" - be it the shopping, cooking chinese food or packing a suitcase

i love...
your passion for aviation and dedication to your craft
your BBQ skills on the four-burner or the camp fire, cooking meat or veg gluten free
your dinner table discussions and debates - disgreeing with you even though we agree
your strength to shed tears when something moves you, touches your heart

i love...
your proactivity to step up and try to make a difference instead of just complaining
your organisation skills and attention to detail for school newsletters or plane tickets to zurich
your humility and ability to admit that if you weren't so modest you'd be perfect
your sense of humour

dad, i love the fact that you care so much about mum and your family and even though i am thousands of miles away i can still feel your love every day, supporting me, guiding me, loving me for who i am, just as i love you!

happy father's day!

Museu da Língua Portuguesa




last weekend i went with my colleague, carol, to the "Museum of the Portuguese Language" at the magnificent old Estação da Luz.

when you first hear that it is a museum about the history of a language perhaps your first thought is complete boredom...unless you are a linguist perhaps...but this was one of the coolest, most interactive exhibitions i have been to and since we could only spend a bit more than an hour there i will definitely go back for further exploration.

wikipedia has a great description of the museum here:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Museum_of_the_Portuguese_Language

Saturday, September 02, 2006

São Paulo is the most polite city in Latin America!

http://www.visitesaopaulo.com/extra/spcortes.asp

crushing biology

i am no biology expert, but as far as i can remember from biology class at school, all creatures are biologically designed to focus on re-production - and whether their methods of attraction to secure a mate are through flashing their coloured plumage, emitting intoxicating chemical secretions or ripping the mate's head off (sucks to be male praying mantis!!), they are designed to try and perform these acts as best as they possibly can so as to secure reproduction and the survival of the species...

why then, when humans are attracted to another of their species do we (or just me??) not perform at our best, not show our best colours, but turn into bumbling uncomfortable idiots??? it does not bide well for the survival of the species!

eu encontrei o apartamento!

well this time i don't have so many amusing stories of looking for an apartment as i did in amsterdam as this one is actually the first one i saw....after much deliberation about personal budgeting and priorities and looking at some "closets" with furniture in them, i have an apartment!!!!

it is 5 minutes walk from the office, brand new, on 24th floor with a terrace and funky furniture and i feel very good to call it home for the next two years

it also has a spare room for visitors (hint hint) - or for a housemate if money or loneliness gets too tight ;) it's my first time living alone in a grown up apartment! :D

and here is the floor plan to give you a sneak preview:


thanks to marcio, karl, anaelvira and ellen who helped me a lot in my searching!